tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4952050352237571556.post4440932010039236278..comments2023-10-25T08:16:38.782-07:00Comments on Of Horses and Men: AHHHHHHHsidetrackedhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16646438998655943806noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4952050352237571556.post-49393176619305164722008-06-12T10:36:00.000-07:002008-06-12T10:36:00.000-07:00Just to add on to the "G" thing. I actually talke...Just to add on to the "G" thing. I actually talked to him today because he knows about my show Saturday and wanted to know if I needed him to watch the dogs. Now, I know the dogs would love to see him and if he's around they would be happirt ahn being cooped up in my parents house. So I told him if he wanted to he could. I will drop them off at his house very early tomorrow, go take my exam and then go back to his house to pick them up in the afternoon and take them to the barn with me as I get ready for the show, ride, bathe, clip, braid, pack etc... The Friday night drop them back off at his house and go back to the barn to sleep in the camper to go to the show the next day. I'm looking for some strength in not caving or soing anything inappropriate. He even told me on the phone today that he knew my friend Sarah was mad that I was talking to him. He told me that he knows he's bad for me right now. I counteracted by asking him if what he as doing was good for his life and he said probably not. Atleast maybe he can realize it right now, but the questions is if he can act on it. So I need strength. This is going to be a trying beginning to the weekend with all this contact. But I can honestly say that it is for the good of the dogs and not some weird way for me to get my fix of "G". The message I want to send him is that I am not supportive of his behaviors or lifestyle and am not just going to do what he wants me to do. I told him on the phone after the whole "I'm not good for you thing" that I just needed to keep a little space between us, that made him not answer. So think of me tomorrow and I'll be hoping for the best show for U. I do wich that you wre closer so we could hang out!!! Ever think of coming to Maine for a vacation??? I know lots of horses you could ride, we have 61 at my barn.sidetrackedhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16646438998655943806noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4952050352237571556.post-21310643150604841802008-06-12T10:29:00.000-07:002008-06-12T10:29:00.000-07:00Good job on dealing with "G" I feel uplifted knowi...Good job on dealing with "G" I feel uplifted knowing you are doing better!!Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00029307154132762913noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4952050352237571556.post-72098864607051674492008-06-12T10:28:00.000-07:002008-06-12T10:28:00.000-07:00I know how sad that is. I grew up with only on set...I know how sad that is. I grew up with only on set of grandparents, as the other passed on when I was almost too young to remember them. So I was very close to my one set of grandparents.<BR/><BR/>Last year - following up on barn fire, and the loss of a good job, I lost my Grandpa - it was hard. I knew it was going to happen because he was sick and no longer talking or eating. So I said my good bye to him and left for a horse show. I wanted to be with my horses when it happened, and I am glad I was. It was a sad grey day - but I was happy that he was no longer in pain and in heaven. <BR/><BR/>It happened early in the morning so I got up, I threw on a hoodie on and drew the hood up over my head and hung out in Stretch's stall until my friend made me come out and eat something - Kelly - that same great friend that did so much for me after the fire.<BR/><BR/>Going through the old stuff is sad too but nice in away and I think you realized that. Those memories you'll have forever...so many things come and go but those will you'll always have.Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00029307154132762913noreply@blogger.com