I'll try to make this short, but it's definately not sweet. As you all know things between Greg and I have still been tense and awkward and pretty much sucky. Great friendship, huh? Well last night I was informed by several different people of what is really going on. He is hanging out with another girl. But not just another girl, pretty much the town slut. She's been in trouble with the law, she drinks and parties all the time. She is younger than me and has a son that she does not have custody of. She is however pretty and very skinny. I found out that they went to Cabella's the other night just like he took me and they did the shooting game just like we did and I'm sure that they even went out to eat at the same place that we did as well. This is what stings.
I texted him that now things make sense that I know the whole picture. he wrote back "rumor-heard that whateva"
I wrote back for him not to be pissed at me. It's not a rumor, I don't know if their screwing or anything but I do know they've been hanging out and such and she's been over to his house. I said that it would have just been nice to hear it from him instead. I then went to the movies with my roomie and her family. On the drive home I couldn't resist and did ask if they were screwing, since we had made a pact to tell each other if we were messing around. No response. I asked him why he wouldn't tell me the truth and no response. I was upset by them so I said that obviously I care more about friendship and honesty then he does.
This morning I couldn't resist and just told him that it would be better hearing things from him instead of everyone else. I said that we are friends and he can talk when he wants to and later. No response. I'm just so upset. Not the fact that he is necessarily messing around, but the fact that he can't even have the decency to talk to me about it or whatever. I just thought that we were better friends than that. Guess not. So I was in a down mood this morning and decided to look up some quotes on confidence and self esteem, here is the one I posted on my facebook
People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in their true beauty is revealed only if there is light from within. ~Elisabeth Kübler-Ross
I just hope that Greg wakes up. I know that this is probably (hopefully) a phase but I'm just really hurt at how our friendship has taken a definate downward turn.
On a good note, I have a horse show this weekend. I rode last night and rode both Possum and Aragon. Things are good in the horse world.