Then Saturday we went to the barn but I just watched everyone and then my friend and I decided to take out her crotch rocket since it was so nice out and the arena was packed that it would be useless to work on things. We had a good time, we cruised through town and then went out to lunch. It started to get pretty chilly so we went home to chill.
Now onto the stressful part of the weekend. I had been trying to be talkative to Greg and everything but every time I called he would blow me off, or I would text him with most times no response. It was driving me crazy. What was going on with him, what was he thinking, and how could we go from talking about 10 times a day to nothing. We don't laugh or talk or even hang out anymore. I was really taking is personally. This is something that you do not do to a friend, regardless to the gender. My last straw was on Saurday night I texted him asking to call me, he said yes and never called the rest of the night. While I was at my parents yesterday for Easter I got a voicemail from him saying that he was busy and crap. Last night I knew he was probably busy as he usually is and sent him about 4 texts telling him how I feel. How the fact that he's ignoring me and blowing me off hurts my feelings. I asked what was going on with him and why he was being this way. I didn't get a response so I went to bed. At 10:30 I get a text from him asking what the deal was andn if I was having a bad night and "holy efn texts" I told him that it wasn't a bad night, and that this was not the reaction that I thought he would have. he texted me back saying that he is not at my beck and call and I text and call him all the time and he doesn't have the time to talk or respond. I told him that was bullshit because he always did have time and now he didn't. I called him instead of keeping texting. He was obviously in a bad mood and started complaining that all us women are the same blah blah. That about pissed me off and I tried to explain to him that I was his friend and was only looking for his friendship back. I don't think he got it. He started to get angry and yelling saying that he was worked up and wanted to go to bed. (He had just got back form playing cards) I told him that I wanted to get this out on the table now because things have been crap for 2 weeks. I gave the example that even if he was one of my girl friends I would be acting like this, he said that that wasn't the same because I was closer to those friends and had known them longer, that really hurt because obviously we aren't on the same level. He said because I had feelings for him that things changed. I told him not to flatter himself and that I'm about as messed up as him and he should know that and cut me some slack. He didn't get it. I mentioned that sometimes he is also confusing especially saying to me one time that he was jealous. He exploded saying that I was still hung up on that and that he said it one time and it's not like that now, wow, another stab. He went on and on and finally I said fine and hung up the phone to let him go to bed. I immediately started to cry. I was sick of all this stress, of feeling like I was walking on egg shells, when he obviuosly didn't give a damn. Why was it that I was trying to convince someone to be friends with me, this was crazy!
I texted him back and said that I was done. I was washing my hands of all of this and that he was missing out on a true friend. He texted back saying that Because I wouldn't respect his wishes to go to bed that I was done. I said that it wasn't just that, it was everything and I'm done feeling like this. Then I texted him happy birthday since his B-day is next Monday and that yes I remembered, because friends do that kind of stuff.
This totally sucks. I hate it, but I can't be that emotional punching bag. I care too much about hi m and he is on another planet. Better to cut ties now than later. So today trying to keep my chin up and keep busy with work. Havn't heard from him and I don't expect to. And even if he did I need to not talk or text and try to heal from all this crap. He can figure out all his stuff on his own. Maybe somedayI'll meet that special person, but right now it's just me and the dogs and cat and horse, all I need right now.