Tuesday, December 30, 2008
When the jumping started I could tell right away that he was full of himself, which is suually a good sign but he was being sloppy. I don't know if it was because he aw maybe a little stiff behind from being stocked up or just too hyper, but he was racing towards the jumps. He would throw his head up in the air to avoid the bit and charge to the jump and literally throw himself over it. Jumping flat and on the forehand instead of sitting back and rocking on his haunches for a good take off. I have to admit that I was a little pissed, but you have to just chalk it up to a bad day. We were eliminated at 4'1". No one was able to break the past years record of 4'6". Afterwards I put the jump to 5ft just for shits and giggles and tried to jump it. The first two times he stopped abrubtly, and once I almost came off as he slid to a stop and then ducked to the side. Luckily I still have a few instincts left and was able to control myself from tumbling off. The last time I brought him to the jump I made the mistake of thinking that he might stop and was nt ready when he heisitated and then started to launcy over it. I got caught behind and definately sat back on his back as I threw my arms forward in hopes of not catching him in the mouth. It was not pretty by far and I let him stop there ona valiant effort. I gave him lots of pats and a good rub down and promised that I would ride him more so we were both in better shape. Everyone had a great time and it was all smiles.
As for the guy situation. "G" has decided that he is going to be mad at me this time and it not really speaking, which is fine with me. We both have to get over this in our own way and maybe this is the best thing for him. As for Greg, I just can't find anything bad about this guy. I am still trying very hard to keep my feelings to myself and keep it on a friend level with no strings, but man I really like him!! My roomie and I are cooking a big dinner to have tomorrow night and Greg and his son might come over to eat with us which will be nice.
I'm battling a wicked cold right now and am just so tired all the time. I'm having a hard time getting up in the morning. Luckily tomorrow is the last day of work this week due to the new year holiday. It'll be nice to relax and chill because this upcoming month is going to be crazy busy with school educations and drop in hrs.
As for the saving money for the ranch trip, it's slow going because I'm still paying off all my bills. But I hope to really stick to it. My roomate might go as well and I think it could just be an awesome time. Well have a good rest of the week and a happy new year if I don't write till then.
Friday, December 26, 2008
The ranch that I'm hoping to go to with Greg an possibly my roomate is the 71 Ranch in Nevada. I keep looking at the website and drooling over the slide show and reading every page detail through detail.
I'm looking forward to the barn party tomorrow. The weather is supposed to be warm in the 30's with no snow predicted. I have a funny story to shre. The other night before Christmas my roomate and I went to the barn to check on our horses and put on extra blankets. We decided to just ride bareback with bridles in the arena to stretch their legs a little. Possum is always a little jumpy with his bareback and you have to be careful. Well I just got done telling my friend that watch he'll try and buck or something when I tried to get on, and no sooner did I try and lay a leg across and was competely sideways on his back due to the many layers that I was wearing when he let out this huge buck. He didn't move other than his hind legs. I was very proud of myself I didn't even lose a little balance. I quickly swung my leg over and he curled his neck up and arched his back and pranced off. I could feel the energy coursing through body. Needless to say we only did some walking and trotting and then I got off and lunged him at liberty to let him blow off some steam. He is just so funny that he makes me laugh all the time. I was also pleased to see that even flying changes on his own are getting much better when he turns and spins or cuts across the arena. It was good to see him and feed him treats and his dinner. I rearranged his blankets so that he was all comfy and toasty.
Today is pretty much a lazy day. Last night I went to the movied with Greg, his brother and my roomate. We went back to his place and had a good time and I ended up crashing there. "G" has just been giving me grief lately and it's kinda stressing me out. So I havn't even taken a shower yet and am just playing on the computer and watchin TV. Somestimes it's good just to be lazy and chill. Well have a great day everyone. Hopefully will have a lot of funstories to share tomorrow after the barn party. I can't wait!
Sunday, December 21, 2008
My roomate and I went over to Gregs house since he did not have his son today and while he watched football we played upstairs on the big screen with video games. It was actually really fun. We also brought all the dogs along for a little added excitement. We then watched a movie and braved the drive home which is usually 20 minutes but it took us about an hour!!! We drove slow and carefully and made it home safe and sound.
SO now we're getting ready to watch Home Alone and get in to the Christmas spirit. I did not go shopping yesterday so now I have to go after work sometime this week which is fine because I know what I need to get but it's just a matter of driving down there and getting it. Jusr wanted to check in tonight and let you all know that if you saw the weather report that I'm fine and so are the horses. I do plan to get to the barn before Christmas and bring Possum his treats as well. SO have a good nighe everyone and I'll check in later.
Friday, December 19, 2008
I'm pissed because Possum has ripped his hood off his blanket and taken the rings with it and I have not yet fixed it. I feel like a bad horse mom since he has a strip of clipped hair under his neck. Granted it is growing in quickly and he is not shivering or anything, but still I bought the damn hood for a reason!!! I need to try and fix that tonight so he can have it on before we get any more snow.
My dogs are doing great and they are my best friends. They hang out on the couch with me in the afternoons and sleep with me at night. I even brought Jetta and Abby over to Greg's house the other night so that his son could visit with them. He fell in love and cried the night after because I couldn't come over with the dogs again. He's such a sweet kid. Speaking of Greg, things are still going strong. I find that the more time I spend with him the more and more I like him. I was talking to him the other day about my dream of going to a real cattle ranch out west and he said that he would love to do that as well. I almost fell out of my chair. "G" would have rather have had his right arm cut off then go to a ranch with me. SO I took it seriously and started to do some research. I am totally serious about this and am hoping to save some money so that I can go in the fall. Greg is all on board, imagine how fun that would be!!! He just keeps amazing me with he generosity and kindness. He may even come to the barn party on Sunday which would be totally cool that he would be taking an interest in what I love doing. But as I am always reminding mydrlf, take it slow girl, there's no rush.
Well that's about it on the horse and guy news. I will definately have more to write after Sunday. Saturday I have designated as Christmas shopping day since I have not even started. Money is just so tight and I am one of those girls that just hates shopping, unless it has anything to do with horses hehehe. So stay tuned I may have a new jumping record to share or maybe a good spill to admit, we'll see.
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Well that's about all. Been busy at work but it's been a good busy. Still need to START my Christmas shopping so that's my plan for this weekend besides the Christmas party ofcourse. Looking forward to spending some tigme with Greg as well this weekend. I just find him so attracting and such a good person. SO have a great rest of the week. I'll try harder to write again. I just finished cleaning the apartment from the mess all of the dogs have made with their toys and managed to vacuum so I'm pretty motivated right now. Have a good night.
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
As far as the horse front is concerned, I havn't done much since the beach this weekend. I hate to sound like an idiot, but really the weather has been frustrating me and I don't really feel like doing much. I did come home last night and cleaned the bathroom and washed my bedding. I never realize until I clean out the lint trap in the dryer how much hair my dogs really shed, it's quite a bit and really washing my bed once a week is a necessity. But I love my dogs and wouldn't trade them for anything in the world, they are really my best friends and they come first, along with my horse and cat ofcourse!!
"G" also came by this afternoon to take the dogs for the day since he had the day off and I'm trying to get things done in terms of work. He was really happy to see them, but ofcourse it was a tense meeting since Greg was also here working downstairs at the house. They didn't see each other but ofcourse I didn't keep it a secret that they were both going to be here, I really have nothing to hide and right now I am just friends with them and they both know that.
Not much going on otherwise. Have a busy day tomorrow so far. We are expected to have quite a big snow and ice storm tomorrow and into Friday which is always nice when you have to drive for work in this crap. One of the things I found out when I started this job that we have snow days and if the weather is really bad then they will cancel work with pay which is really cool since I really hate driving in this crap even though I'm used to it and also have studded snow tires. The bulk of my driving in the week is on Friday so we'll see what the weather has to bring. Have a good day everyone and stay safe.
Monday, December 8, 2008
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Monday, December 1, 2008
I got out and rode Possum Saturday and it was fun. My back held up well and I worked on building up my endurance which has really been lacking since the broken back incident. It was good to see him and also extra good to have him trace clipped so I didn't have to stay for hours afterwards cooling him out. He really is such a good horse, I can go from riding him every day to once every week and he is still great for the most part. He doesn't offer to rear or buck.l He lets me know when he has extra energy and we work accordingly. I didn'[t really do much jumping since my body was in agony after not riding consistently.
Tonight I'm going back to the barn and gonna ride with my roomate under the lights in the indoor. Work has been really busy which is a good thing. I'm still really liking this job and so excited it's still working out.
Well don't really have much time to chat heing busy and all. I'll check in again tomorrow afternoon. I have a healthy relationships presentation tomorrow AM at a middle school so that should be interesting. You never know what kids that age are going to do.
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
I don't want to walk around all day murmuring about schedules and meetings and money and what to have for dinner that night. I want to take every minute as something new and a challenge and even an adventure. For example, I'm dreading going to Boston with my parents for Thanksgiving because of the long drive and the fact that they set their speed control on the highway to 65 which happens to be the exact speed limit. I'm just thinking about what time I'm gonna be home and the hassle of the day in general. Flash back to about 15 yrs ago. I would have been jumping out of my seat to hang with my cousins and visit and chat. I would have begged my parents to leave earlier and come home later. Why does it have to be like this when we get older?
My goal as of now is to try and get some of those feelings back. Focusing on having fun and not taking days for granted just to get to another one. I want to take my riding back to the basics and continue to work on my relationship with my horse and have fun. I don't want to get all caught up in training and showing as it takes the personal aspect of riding and horse ownership. I want to take things back to when I was a kid while also juggling the responsibilities of an adult. Can it work? I don't know but stay tuned.
As for the daily dish. My roomie left to go up north to visit with family last night. Yesterday was her birthday and the idiot didn't even tell me until that night because she doesn't want to make a big deal of it, whatever! So we went and had a quick dinner before she hit the road. I spent some time with the dogs and then went to Greg's and spent the night. We had a good time chatting and teasing one another. The more time I spend with him the more I like him every day. He even made the comment to me last night about the fact that I'll get sick of him sooner or later. I actually took offense to that as it is the complete opposite of how I feel. I just need to remember to cool my jets and take it a day at a time, as mentioned above. I tend to like to get ahead of myself. It's like reading the last chapter of a book. Sure you know what happens at the end, but you miss out on all the good stuff in the middle and the actual story itself. Why do I do this to my life? Anyways, enough heavy thinking. I'm gonna get back to work and enjoy the next 4 days of a great family holiday.
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Last night I stopped home and let all the dogs out to go to the bathroom and then packed all 4 of them up in my car and I headed to my parents to pick up Possum's hood to attach to his blankiet since the barn owner called yesterday to let me know she had just trace clipped him. I went and had a little dinner at my parents, picked up the hood and drove to the barn. I got Possum out and gave him a good grooming. His trace clip looked really good. There's nothing like the attractiveness of a half clipped appy, but what can you do. I could tell he was hyper as he was daqncing in the cross ties and snaking his head around. I out the chain on him and led him to the indoor. I hopped on bareback and couls immediately feel the electricity coursing through his body. His back was tight as a drum and wouls hunch up at tje slightest moment. He was doing all he could do to behave. I walkewd hin for about 10 minutes and tried a little trot. he pranced sideways and shook his head and arched it to almost touching his neck. I made the decision to get off and let him play a little on the lunge since there was a olesson going on and I couldn't just turn him loose. He took off after I clipped the line and moved him into the circle. I had to smile and chuckle as he squealed and farted. He wasn't being bad and I knew he just couldn't hold onto all that energy any longer. I softly thanked him for not exploding when I was on him. He quicly settled down and I put him through his paces in both directions.
I then walked him back to the barn and gave him another good brushing and put both of his new boankets on plus his hood. The weather I knwe was supposed to be nasty for the next few days so I wanted to make sure he was plenty warm enough especially after being clipped now. I gave him a quik treat and a kiss on the forehead and turned him out. I then brought the dogs to "G's" for the night and went home and chatted with my roomie and one of her friends. I talked to Greg before literally passing out at 11pm.
Have actually been busy todday at work despite the miserable weather which is good. I even got to have a Thanksgiving feast at the last school I went to which was awesome and I was able to really connect with a lot of students. Anyways, that's about all for today. Don't think I'll go see Possum tonight since I feel kinda crappy and the weather is the same. Have a good day everyone. The ski areas are alreqady open around here too which means that winter is just about here! Stay warm and stay safe and make sure your horsies are comfortable.
Monday, November 24, 2008
So it was a lot of late nights in the lounge and bar area and lots of yelling to hear over one another. I also got to chill in the pool and hot tub a few times which was nice. The wedding was short and sweet; just the way I like it and the reception had to end at around 9P due to the fact that another wedding reception was scheduled. Now to the weather. I was hoping, praying and expecting temps to be atleast a little higher than home in Maine. Well it was literally freezing. There was frost on the cars in the morning and it even spit snow which is crazy, this is the south and not even in the moutains, it's on the coast. So needless to say my skimpy strapless dress was not quite warm enough in the weather and wind. Ohwell. I was happy to come home and see my dogs and my roomate.
I basically picked up my dogs last night ran home, dropped my things, took a quick shower and scratched each of the kids and then drove to Greg's to hang out for a while before I passed out from exhaustion. I was so tired because the night before I stayed up until 4am hangin with family and others at the hotel and watching everyone get drunk and being silly. I had a lot of fun, but only managed to get about 3hrs of sleep, so I was basically running on fumes last night. It was good to see Greg and I realized how much I missed talking to and seeing him on a regular basis. He said that he also missed me and it was his idea that I come over. That made me happy.
Got up early this morning and got gas and went home to let the dogs out and hang with them for a bit. Then took a quick shower, threw laundry in the washer, let the dogs out again and jetted out the door to work. I admit that I'm wicked tired today and can only think about taking a good long sleep in my comfy bed with my animals, but unfortunately the funeral home has visiting hrs tonight so the dogs need to vacate the premisis for a bit, not sure where we're going to go, but somewhere for a few hrs.
I'm glad that this is a short work week. I just found out that I also have Friday off so I'm psyched! I also have a relatively light week in terms of work due to school winding down and getting ready for the holiday. Next week is a different story alltogether, so I'll take advanatage of the slow time now. I'll be going to Boston for Thanksgiving to visit with more family and then driving back the same day which will suck, but atleast it's only one day and I'll get to spend more time with my cousins.
As for news on the horse front, there have been zero. Possum has been trace clipped and before I left last week I dropped off his stable blanket to go under his mid weight turnout. I forgot his hood at my parents house, but maybe that will give me something to do tonight since the weather the next few days is calling for wet and cold rain and I'd like to have him all bundled up since he lives outside with a shelter. I miss my Possum and he deserves a good grooming tonight from his mother. OK, so that's it, I made up my mind. The dogs and I are going to drive to my parents and get Possum's hood and then go to the barn where I'll give him a good grooming and make sure he is dressed right. Well I better get back to work. Talk to you all tomorrow.
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Been actually kinda bored lately. I did not see Greg again last night. He has a lot going on in his life right now and I understand that, but geesh I really like seeing and talking to him. He's a super sweet guy and if things were different I know we would be dating, but like I said he has a lot to sort out right now in order to be healthy and fully functioning again. Also, the more I think about it, I probably need some down time too with all the hype from "G" and stuff, but damnit, I just have a hard gtime waiting things out, I think it is the 12yo in me that is so impatient and that wants everything NOW!!!
Work has been very busy lately. I am still trying to establish a normalized schedule and meeting new people and trying to remember names to faces, it can be overwhelming at times. I've already been up at the ass crack of dawn and drove to a middle school to watch a presentation and now I'm back at the office and getting ready to go to area schools to send out posters and flyers to spread the word to students that I will be in the schools. I do have to say though that I absolutely love my job so far and really think that this was a good change for me in the long run.
I was on call last night for the hotline and was almost certain that I would get atleast one call in the night, but alas all was quiet. I got some good sleep last night and had no issues with getting up this morning which is a good thing.
Tonight I hope to see Greg and hang out a little, I really do miss talking and seeing him. My roomie has the day off so she should be home when I get home. Have a good day everyone.
Monday, November 17, 2008
Thursday, November 13, 2008
I took a quick shower and headed out the door. "G" had picked up the dogs earlier since he wanted them for the night so I didn't have to worry about them. Greg and I hung out some and both basically collapsed from exhaustion. We take similiar anti anxiety medications so the side effects are the same and one of those is feeling tired. He gently woke me up this morning and said that he had gone outside and started my car. What a sweet heart. His son started to wake up so I headed out to go home and get ready for work. I havea busy day today going to local school and establishing drop in hrs and also scheduling presentations. I can say with certainty that I REALLY want to go to bed early tonight. Not that 11P was late last night, but I'm just dragging ass lately.
This weekend my big plan is to find a dress for the wedding in Virginia next week. I also need to do some research on the weather because I have no idea what the weather is there this time of year. I want something cute and cheap hahaha, good luck I know. I also want to either lunge or ride my horse. My back has been a little sore lately so lunging might be the way to go. He needs some work on lunging in side reins anyways so it'll be good for him. Weather is supposed to suck for the rest of the week. I think that's another reason that I'm tired because of all the changes in the weather patern. I feel like I could just fall asleep right now and not wake up till tomorrow *sigh*
But I hope to get out at a decent time this afternoon since I came in early so I can take the afternoon to chill. I was going to take the dogs to the barn to run around, but with the weather I would rather not be driving wet dogs around in the car. Hmmm, wonder what Greg is doing tonight hehehe. He really is the sweetest guy, I have never met anyone like him before, it really is amazing. Oh well, I'll keep ou all updated. Sorry my blog hasn't been very horsey lately due to the fact that I can't or do as much as I would like.
I have been reading everyone's blogs and checking on horsey progress. I enjoy reading and checking in with everyone. Talk tomorrow.
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Greg and I stayed up for a while talking and then fell asleep. I woke up at 5:30AM to go home and get ready for work. Let me also add that I stayed over at Gregs house because my roomate was supposed to have friends over late to visit because she had today off, so I needed some sleep. I let the dogs out for a nice long time this morning and got to work right on time. Due to some mix ups I ended up driving around today for no reason so now I'm just reading through curriculum stuff and getting to know all of the material that I will be presenting. I am currently listening to opera on You Tube much to the disdain of my office mate who is looking at me like I have two heads hahaha. I love opera music it relaxes me and keeps me grounded. Just killing some time now because staying at the office until the dinner at 6P. I'm already tired but hopefully after I have some good food in me I'll wake right up.
Weather is again supposed to be crappy tomorrow after a gorgeous day today, figures! The weekend also looks disgusting. Saturday I'll be going to my parents house for my dads birthday which is actually today but we are celebrating it on Saturday. I also have Possum's winter hood and belly straps in their garage that I need to get before I have him trace clipped.
My back is doing OK although it was really bothering me when I woke up this morning. "G" called me today and is finally taking steps to sobriety and self happiness, he made the call to the doctors office and is meeting with them tomorrow. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that he holds out and gets the help that he needs. This could be a major step in his recovery and in his realization of depression. So that's about all I can think of right now to blog about. I'm just kinda taking every day at a time, but I can say that I love hanging out with Greg and feel as though I could really develop feelings for him, but for now I'm just playing it cool and letting the cards fall as they may. Well it's time to sign off, I just found some good music from Norah Jones that needs my attention. Talk again tomorrow.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
So had a good day. Last night was a blast. I took the dogs to the barn to run around and play with the other dogs. I also lunged Possum for about half an hour and he did really well. So after he worked I let him walk around and eat some hay. It was nice to hang with him. My roomie and I went to little local quaint bar after and met with Greg and his friend. He was having a few beers since his recent finalized divorce. He later came home with us to hang out. My roomie had some friends over so Greg and I hung out for a while down in the funeral part of the home. We talked about everything and anything. He ended up staying over and then went home in the morning with my roomie on her way to work. I went back to sleep until he called and asked if I wanted breakfast and to say that he was coming over to hang out. We talked some more about life and shit. All I have to say is that it's good just to talk to someone who has been through similiar things and share stories. We went for a drive to the barn where he checked out the literally hundreds of turkeys and I showed him Possum. It was good to share mu love of horses with someone else who really doesn't have a clue about them. he then had to go back home and do stuff so I went and got lunch with the dogs and then I went for a ride along with my roomie. For those of you who don't know she is a police officer in the next town. We had fun and even had some good calls. So I'm sitting in the PD writing this blog entry while listening to You Tube. Thinkin about going home soon to let the dogs out. Might go to Gregs house to chill out and watch some TV since he has his son tonight who might I add the cutest kid ever!
That's about all I have to share today. Can't ride tomorrow since after work all of the employees are going out to dinner with the board members which will take a while. Plus the weather has just not been great lately. it was only 40 degrees today and spitting snow. I am so not ready for winter!!!! Check in tomorrow with any more news.
Monday, November 10, 2008
Not going to the barn tonight, weather sucks and I have things to do around the house such as laundry and other shit. I called "G" last night to check on how he was doing. He sounded better than the day before. I want him to know that I still care very much about him and am just taking this time to myself and giving him the chance to do things on his own that ne needs to do. I'm just counting the minutes until I leave work. I've been feeling very anxious this afternoon and maybe it's because It's Monday and getting into the swing of work, who knows. Well I'm pretty boring today with not much else to say. I talked to Possum's farrier at the barn yesterday and he will be geting his winter shoes on hopefully by the end of this week. I am so not looking forward to winter since I feel like we didn't have much of a summer and all of the good riding time I have missed out on due to my back. Oh well, atleast I can still ride and should be thankful for that. Have a great rest of the day everyone, and I promise my posts will get better with pics and things, but right now too busy.
Sunday, November 9, 2008
So I came home and gave all th everyone joins in and has no idea what they are evenb ree dogs a bath since they had decided to roll in the newly fertilized fields and throughly smelled like chicken shit! Thinga at the barn are also straightening themselves out although I am curious as to who left the nasty comments previous because really they had nothing to do with anything that has happened and I think just wanted to get a piece of the action. It's kinda like a dog fight, two dogs get into an argument and then all of a sudden they all join in and don't even know what their fighting about but like to get into it for the sake of the fight. The fact that they also posted as anonomous tells me something about their character. K, nough said.
As for the things with "G" I have decided that we need a break and I am doing my own thing. I have met a very very very nice guy and I love talking to him. Nothing else going on right now as he is at the tail end of a divorce oh and did I also tell you that he has a kid??? But there is something about this guy, he's been able to show me how I should be treated and how I really don't need to put up with the crap that I have been going through. His heart was smashed into a milion pieces when his wife cheated on him and he caught them and now she asked for the divorce. I guess lonely and broken hearts flocketogether. I am keeping all options for myself open and am focusing on have fun and enjoying life. I have a new job, a great place to live and some great friends. I need to focus on that and that only. I actually am very happy with my decision.
Week after next I am flying to Virginia to attend my cousins wedding where all of my family will also be. I am really looking forward to going even though it's only for 3 days it will be good to get away and reconnect with family. I'm still catching up with everyone's blogs and have enjoyed reading everyone's riding and horse adventures. Have a great Sunday and will catch up again tomorrow.
Friday, November 7, 2008
I'm still trying to catch up on everyone's blogs so if I'm not commenting it just means I'm busy reading everyone's stuff. Things have been a little crazy in my life in the guy department. "G" and I are on a weird break at my request. I need some time away from him and have decided that if he really doesn't get some serious help I'm not going to be sticking around. This is a huge step for me, but it has also been prompted someone else who has given me some encouragement. I'm not going to blog about it too much but all I'm gonna say is that there are nice guys out there and no matter what age or stage of life you and they are in, when there is a connection it is hard to ignore that.
As for Possum. I havn't seen him too much. I'm kinda ashamed as I write this. It's just so hard for me to be at the barn and not ride or do anything, it really kills me. I alos know that Possum is gorging himself on food and probably loving his vacation. This weekend I'm def going to the barn and even if I don't ride I'll free lunge him again and play some games with him. I miss him so much and need to be with him. This Saturday I'm going to be helping a friend on free jumping her new mare who was just accepted as first premium in her dutch warmblood keuring. She's a beautiful mare with white socks and a striking face, she would make a lovely hunter after some good training. I'm looking forward to helping her and she hopes to take some good pics and videos because she plans on selling the mare.
Well that's about all I can think of for now. My back is getting stronger and stronger every day and I hope to be up to full running power in the next few weeks. Have a great day everyone and an exciting weekend.
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Possum is doing wonderfully. He's running around and tearing up the place. I went to the barn last weekend and free lunged him in the arena and he was jumping jumps and having a great time. The barn wounds are mending. There was a lot of confusion, cross talking and questions that no one knew the answers to. As you can see from the comments in my last post people can be very nasty. I had to laugh when I heard about those comments because it was the wife of the man who was injured who told me about them. It's funny how people can lie so much and be so mean and vindictive when they don't even know the facts and clearly did not see the events that took place although they claim they were there and also ride at my barn. They obvioisly don't know me very well is all I have to say.
As for my back I am healing really well. I'd be lying if I said I havn't hopped on my horse bareback to walk around. My hip is also healing although it still hurts like a bastard. But I'm much more mobile and getting better everyday. It's just hard for me to be at the barn right now cause I can't ride or basically do anything. I'm thinking of trying a short ride in the arena rhis weekend and see if I can even post the trot.
Things are going really well and I am so grateful for everyone's well wishes', and prayers. I feel like I'm in a good place right now too. I also have anew good friend who I will talk about later, but for right now I'm doing well. Have a great day everyone and talk soon.
Monday, October 20, 2008
As for the accident, it was a mojor accident and poor timing and communication. As I blogged about before; we went to a boarders house for a fun day of food games and horses and it turned almost deadly during the dash race. I'm OK, I broke the T6 vertebre in my back. After 8 days I am still in a good deal of pain. I was supposed to start my new job today but simply couldn't. They were great and really understood the situation. I'm going to call my new boss Wednesday but she doesn't expect me to start until next Monday since I am still mostly bed ridden. I see a surgeon this week about possible surgery but they don't expect right now that it will be necessary.
My roomate was also involved in the accident and she didn't break anything, but she got pretty banged up and the other man involved dislocated his shoulder and has a fracture in his shoulder, I'm hoping that he heals quickly.
I'm not going to go into too much detail of the accident itself since a lot of people from the barn read this and I guess there is still some controversy but I do want to set the record straight here. At no time did I mean to put myself, my horse, other people or others at risk AT ALL!!! It was an accident that happened at about a speed of 40MPH and everything just went wrong. It was no one's fault and I believe that no one is to blame, Hell I didn't even want to be the first to race but reluctantly did so. The horses involved are doing just fine and will make a quick and speedy recovery. From what I hear Possum was galloping around his pasture which makes me happy. I will say that through this there has been some tension at the barn which makes me very very sad. I wake up almost every night and run the events through in my mind and it just keeps coming out the same. The people who I thought were my bestest friends and biggest supporters have really let me down in this time of need. I am very sad about this and have tears in my eyes as I write this. The accident happened in a matter of seconds and I had to make some quick decisions on my welfare, my horses and others. I can say that as I was approaching the horse who then backed 3 steps up directly in my path, my only thought was to not hit the horse and rider in the middle becaise it would kill them for sure. I saw a brief opening to go around as far as I could since there was also a horse racing on my left and just as we were going by the horse backed and we collided into the hind end. It sent me sailing several feet in the air doing all kinds of acrobatics and I landed on my back and then my hip and left side. I never lost consciosness and remember the entire thing. I had no idea that any other people were hurt since I was face up and could not breathe. It was so bad that the police were called because they thought I might die and kept saying things like "her pupils are fixed and dialated" and "she won't breathe". How someone could get angry or mad at a situation like that I will never know. I have spoken to all the people involved in the crash and they are doing well. But I will never forget the sickening sound of a horse colliding with another and the silence of flying through the air. My horse literally flipped over causing the horse running next to us to lose her footing and go down with my roomate. It was a mess and something that I hate to keep thinking about.
Throughout all of this my roomate and "G" have been wonderful supports. They have had to bathe me and take me to the bathroom. Help me up from bed and do things for me, I will be forever grateful for their help and support. Things with "G" are great and he has really risen to the occasion. After I was released from the hospital the next day he was there to take me to his house and help me up the stairs. He bought a brand new TV to put in the bedroom for me to watch. He gave me my medicines and rubbed my head until I fell asleep and now has been a shoulder to cry on through all of this. I guess through all of this you really know who has your back (literally). I have a lot of emotions running through me and don't even feel comfortable visiting the barn due to the tension. I miss my horse but can't even lead him out of the pasture because of my back and hip. I'm here at my parents house as this is one of the first days I can drive on my own. I don't even want to go back home and lay in bed alone listening to the silence of my phone not ring.
But just wanted to say hi to all my blogger friends and let you know that I'm expected to make a full recovery and will be back on and riding in 3 months or so. Don't know when I'll have internet again but I am getting a new laptop with my job so hopefully by next week I'll be back on. Thanks everyone for your positive thoughts, prayers and well wishes, they are greatly appreciated.
Thursday, October 9, 2008
He actually sat me down the other night and told me how he was feeling and felt like I was shitting on him. Well I was, but I wasn't meaning to. He talked about the future long term and what he wants from me. What he was saying made perfect sense and was something that I also wanted. So why was I acting like this? I finally had the guy I wanted for so long and now I was just taking advantage of him. I thought about it for quite a while yesterday and tried to dissect my feelings. I called him from work and asked him if I could stay the night after my going away party at work, he said yes, but asked if this was what I really wanted or because I was trying to make it up to him, I told him it was what I really wanted.
The party was great last night and we even got to play some Guitar Hero which is always a blast. I finally realized at 7P that my dogs probably had their legs crossed and were waiting for me to come home so they could go pee. I rushed home and immediately let them out to do their thing. I then packed a few things, said bye to my roomate and went to "G's". I had called him earlier and he was with his friend over on the look out up the road just talking. "G" never just talks, what a change! I made sure to be very nice and keep my ears open to what he was saying last night. I have a tendency to hear what he says and then just let it go out the other ear, again not on purpose, but I need to work on that. We played with the dogs and gave them love and then laid in bed and relaxed. We talked a little more about our status and what he wants from this. I told him that I loved him and even if I am mean or rude to him, I don't mean it and sometimes it's good to have a reality check on how I'm acting. He said that he wasn't mad or anything that I've made horse plans all weekend, but just feels like he's getting passed down the to do list. I agreed that things have been hard with my job and just dealing with changes in our relationship. I'm trying so hard not to be the clingy no life person I was before, but also be independent and do things that make me happy. I need to find a balance between the two. He really understood how I was feeling and the struggles I was going through. I apologized for treating him not so nice and that he was right in calling me out on it. We were silent for a minute or so and then he rolled over and gave me a huge hug and just held me and said that he loved me. It felt good, it felt right. We turned out the lights and just let sleep come to us.
I'm at work now on a Thursday with really nothing to do, just waiting for my time to be up on Friday. The interview went really well I think yesterday. I stayed right on track with my grooming speeck, making sure to make eye contact with everyone and asking if anyone had any questions. At the end I asked them how many people they had ocme back for second interviews and they daid "Many". My heart sank as I heard that. I really want this job, and have kinda put all my eggs in one basket. I had a nightmare last night that I didn't get the job and had no money and had to move out of the apartment. I think I'm going to look for more jobs today and send in some resumes.
Tonight I'm going to the barn after work. Havn't decided yet if I'm going to ride Possum or Moonshine. Probably willd ecide when I'm changing at home getting my chaps on. I'm leaning more towards Possum, but we'll see.
I've tried not to think about this much lately, but I am in need of some better finances, bad. I'm thinking of picking up some chores at the barn to help take money off my board. I don't make that much money to begin with, and I'm been straying from my budget putting a blind eye to my checking account. I need to step it up and be responsible and really start to watch my spending. Meaning the most money I spend is on food. I hate cooking and will almost always order a sandwich or something instead of cooking. This needs to stop and next week I'm going grocery shopping and not buying another piece of food for the week.
Well that's about it for today. Nothing really interesting, just kinds talking out loud. Just kinda tired today, not because I didn't get enough sleep, but just stress and money and job ending tomorrow, it really takes a toll. But I have a fun horsey weekend to look forward to so that should be good. Have a great day everyone.
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
I got some note cards together, not that I need them, but to make sure I stay on track and focused. I'm handing out a little diagram of a horse with the basics labeled like hoof, wither, tail, ears, face etc... Again wanted to dumb it down to that the least horsey person could follow along and understand what is being talked about. So that is at 3:15 today and I'm a little nervous but excited. As long as I keep my focus and talk like I normallly do I'll be just fine. Wish me luck anyways....
Monday night after work I wasn't going to ride since I was still recovering from this cold, but my roomie was going and I couldn't resist since I feel like I've been neglecting Possum lately and I knew I would be busy this week. PLus I wanted to give the dogs a chance to run around and play. I gave Possum a good brushing and was amazed at how fuzzy his hair had gotten in just a little under a week. We were racing the daylight so I did a nice long warm-up for him to loosen up and then went into our normal routine. We worked on some flying changes and he was great. I did a lot of transitions and then we started trotting and then cantering little fences working on adding in a stride and then taking a stride out of a line. He did really well. Then at the end my roomie and I for kicks took turns jumping out of the arena which is lined with PVC poles at about 3ft and a little. He did great and sailed right over it no problems. I let him cool out for a while and gave him a good rub down and then let him loose to eat grass while I put stuff away and talked with people.
I have decided last minute that I'm going with a friend on Saturday to a local club show. It's fun, no real pressure and just an open type show with some little jumping in the afternoon. I thought it would be a fun end of the show season event. Not sure if I'm bringing Possum or Moonshine, we'll find out tomorrow night when I go to the barn and ride.
Then Sunday we are all trailering our horses to a boarders house close to the barn. Every year she has a little cook out and games at her house. She makes jumps in her field and has a dirt road for the yearly race on horseback. She also has miles and miles of beautiful trails. It's a potluck lunch an so far the weather is looking good. It'll be a really fun time to visit with barn people and their families. Anyone related to the barn is invited even if they don't ride or own a horse.
SO I havea busy week and weekend end. The good thing is that I have all next week off regardless of what happens this week. I'm looking forward to a break. My roomate is possibly looking into a new saddle and either Wednesday or Thursday of next week we're going to Dover Saddlery in NH to try saddles and look and drool over the items in the huge store. I love that place and I don't mind the 2 and a half hr drive to get there. I just can's spend ANY money because I'm broke! I still need to pay board and that's gonna have to wai tuntil next pay period. Oh man I hope I get this job. Thank goodness this little show on Saturday is super cheap.
So that's about it for today. I'm just finishing up here at work and going to clean my office which desperately needs it. Dreaming of being at the barn instead. Oh, after work tonight we are all going to a co0workers house for a little going away party for myself and the other worker here so I'll have dinner there. I'm also planning on bringing Phineous inon Friday for my last day, what are they gonna do, fire me??!! Have a great day everyone. Now that read this post I can't believe how busy I actually am. I guess I kinda have a life and it revolves around my horse and animals, I love it.
Monday, October 6, 2008
Friday, October 3, 2008
That's how I'm feeling about my upcoming weekend, and it's good to be busy. I went to the barn last night and let Possum out to graze after he had his dinner. I took the opportunity to give him a good brushing while he was eating. Even though he was still clean and fluffy underneath, he did have some dirt on his coat. I picked his feet and let him be. I hung out with my horsey friends and then went inside the owners house to watch the video that was taken of a show a few months ago. This was the show where Possum galloped around and tried to jump a jump when we were doing our ending courtesy circle.
Well after watching the video, it was much worse riding it then watching it. Sure there were a few chip ins and times when he would get speedy, but nothing like the speed show it felt like on top of his back. I felt a little better about our progress over the summer even though I didn't show him nearly as much as I wanted to for the sheer lack of funds. After watching the video I loaded up the dogs and we drove to our hometown. I spoke with "G" on the phone and he decided to come over when he got home and took a shower and asked that I order pizza and he'll pick it up on his way. He was being so nice and sweet and I know we're both in the same boat financially that I ordered it and paid for it. He came over shortly after and was all nice saying that I didn't have to pay for it and he was going to. It just felt like the right thing to do. I kinda got a rough nights sleep due to three dogs, one cat and a boy in my bed. I may complain about it now, but I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world. I love all of my animals and they love me too. We're just a big happy family. I went about my normal routine this morning of letting the girls out to pee first and then taking a shower and getting dressed and then taking all of them out for their normal session. I refilled their food and water dishes, gave them each a kiss bye and left for work.
I have a busy day ahead of me. I'm finishing up everything at work, need to get out a little early to switch laundry over and pack all of mine and the dogs stuff for staying the night at my parents house. I'm meeting my roomie at the police dept. and then we're going to my parents house, dropping the dogs off and going to the haunted ski area. AFter that we'll probably grab a late dinner and then I'll go to my parents house and Holli will drive home.
The next morning is my cousins shower and then we're all going to the fair together. Saturday night the dogs and I are staying at "G's" and then Sunday I'm going to the fair to go to the races. It's a weekend packed full, but it's all things that I enjoy. I told Possum last night that he's getting the weekend off and to rest and eat, I think he'll take my advice. Then next week is my last week of employment and then I have a week off to relax and destress. I also should know about the job early next week which I'm keeping my fingers crossed. I have also been toying with the idea of attending a local jumper and equitation show. I usually like to end the show season wil a bang and just have fun and do our thing. I think more seriously about it when I've paid all of my bills for the first of this month and see what's up.
So have a great weekend everyone, the weather is supposed to be nice here and I'm going to tke full advantage. SO what are all your plans for the weekend? does it involve any riding?
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
I got up fairly early because I have a busy day here at work. I got some tea on the way to a visit to try and get my voice back and dislodge some of the gunk in my throat (I know, Yuck!) I made it through the visit, got some more tea to bring back to the office and go to check my mail and find that I have won a plaque from cdncowgirl . What a suprise that was. I have been so busy lately that I hardly nominated anyone. I just wanted to take this time to thank all of my great and wonderful blog friends. Never do I think that people care much about my story of horses and men, and never would I imagine that someone would care enough to nominate me for a prize. It really does make me feel great and restore my faith in humanity.
I knew there was a reason that I love horse people so much. Not to say that all my blog readers are horse people per say, but what a great bunch of folks I have for support out there in internet land. I'm going through another tough transition in my life right now. It seems that once I'm over one hurdle another one pops up. But with my added supports and techniques learned throughout the journey I know I can handle pretty much anything that life throws at me.
I have an interview today at 3P. Even though my voice is shot and my nose is plugged I'm going to go and do my best. I have more visits today but am going to look at the positive side of things. Even clients that I tell I'm leaving really have a genuine reaction and ask me how I'm going to be. I tell them I'm going to be fine and that they will see me out in the community. You never really seem to know how many lives you've touched unless something like this happens. Usually many people don't know until they die or have a huge illness. I;m lucky, I only have a cold, I have my animals and family and internet friends and barn friends all cheering me on.
My brother is in town from Hollywood California and staying with my parents for a week to go to the www.fryeburgfair.com A fair that we grew up next to, the largest fair in Maine. Friday we're going to a ski area for a haunted house and have to take the chair lift up in the dark to the top of the mountain where all the spooky thing sare, which sounds like a blast and my roomate is going with me. http://www.cranmore.com/info/events/calendarevent.ghoullog.item.asp I have a lot to look forward to.
I don't know if I'll make it to the barn tonight, It's raining here again but the outlook for the rest of the week looks good. I'm gonna get as much rest as I can I have a busy weekend coming up. My cousin from Virginia is coming to Maine to my parents house to have her wedding shower. She's only 23 and I can't believe she's getting married. She and her finance really are in love and I hope only the best for them. After the shower we're all going to the fair. I'm going to bet on some of the STB races and hopefully see some of my race friends too. It'll be good to see some of my family I only get to visit with once in a while. Have a great day everyone, and remember even when your down or feel like your all alone, your not. Here's the song for the day.
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Go to www.harnessracingphotography.com
Then select the Maine Medals gallery.
After that go to the outdoor section
The to the modified adult Medal and modified adult equitation.
You can't miss us, he's the whitesh appy with his earls always pinned back. SOme are so so and some are just bad. Tell me what you think. You can also see from the pics how rainy and gross out it was that day.
There were a ton of riders despite the weather. I believe our barn had 9 riders or so. Everyone did really well. Possum and I had a judged warm-up first of all (in the pouring rain) we did pretty well and got 8th out of like 20. Then in the equitation class I thought that we had a pretty solid course, nothing to win the class or anything but we didn't get pinned which I was a little bummed about. I took Possum for a little walk around the grounds to get my composure and game face on. I then went in the ring for the first round of the medal and I was too concentrated and fierce that I just couldn't find the right pace. I ended with a dismal score of 66. It we tense to see if I would even make the call back with a score like that, well I barely squeaked into the second round. I was determined todo better. Possum and I went in there and put in a really solid round and earned a score of 76 whick is good, not spectacular, but solid. We ended up placing 7th in the Medal which I was OK with.
"G" came to watch and support me Sunday afternoon in the rain. It was nice to have him there. He wiped off my boots and gave me leg ups. He then left before they pinned the class to go home and let the dogs out.
After we left the show grounds we were all exhausted. We raced home, unpacked, unloaded the horses and went home and literally collapsed. I still have a pile of clothes and stuff laying on my bedroom floor. My roomie and I passed out. Iwoke up yesterday morning with a fever and feeling like shit. My head was spinning and all I wanted to do was sleep some more. I seriously think something is wrong with me and am seriously considering having a blood test done or something because I am so tired all the time.
I called into work and literally spent the entire day in bed. I slept until noon, watched TV for like an hour and went back to bedfor the rest of the day. I got up this morning still feeling like crap but atleast didn't have a fever. I know I'm sick from spending over 12 hrs in the rain Sunday. SO I'm back i nthe office finishing up work stuff.
I do have an interview tomorow for a job so I'm looking forward to that. Gonna get home tonight, have some soup and then go to bed and hope that tomorrow I feel better.
I do have to say that I was very proud of Possum. Despite the mistakes and things that I made he did really well. He wasn't rushing, and he was listening and did really well. I know we were both miserable in the weather but for our last year in the modified adult I think we did OK despite all the things going on. Will check in tomorrow, but am tired and need to get work done now. Hope everyone had a good weekend and I'm going to rustle up some pics from the rainy finals and someone even got videos of us so when I get them hopefully I can figure out how to do it.
Friday, September 26, 2008
These pics are not of me (I wish) but their a good portrayal of moring at horse shows, and the one with the little dog was just too cute.