The beginning of the weekend

Just wanted to give everyone a quick update before I'm totally lost this weekend in the sunshine and warm temps and at the barn. I AM OFFICIALLY CLOSING THE CHAPTER ON GREG. Yes you heard it here. we talked a little yesterday and he is pretty much into this girl, yes they hang out and that means they probably do other things as well. He's a great guy with a lot of great qualities and he is probably playing with fire on this one, but I'm not his mother and I need to do my own thing. He'll find out one way or another. Also the guy that my roomieand I had a double "date" with turned out to be really weird. I was not attracted to him whatsoever. I felt bad because he was very nice and stuff, but nothing was there. I told him before we even hung out that I was not looking for anything serious, just friends. Well he took it badly. He freaked when I didn't call him every hour and started to say some nasty and mean things to me. Something that maybe a teeneger would do, not a 31 yo man!!! So that is all done and I'm kinda relieved.

Thursday night my roomie and I had a friend over. He is a very nice guy, but not bf material for me, we just have too different of lifestyles. He is very fun to hang out with and loosens me up and calls me out on being too anxious, I love it. We talked to about 4 in the am and it was great. Definately made a new good friend on this deal. Doesn't help that he is very cute too (slap my face, wake up girl no day dreaming) I mean looks have nothing to do with anything hehehe.

Last night rode Possum with a barn kid on a ten mile or so trail ride. Had a ton of fun and got to jump some jumps on a trail too. Possum was raring to go which shows me that our conditioning and riding has really gotten him back in shape which is awesome. He also had his shots done the other day so he is officially ready to do anything he or I want. Gonna go hang at the barn all day today as well and ride atleast Aragon and Possum and maybe get some sun. My friend from the other night, Nick also stopped by. He has an innate interest in horses which is totally cool. His sister used to ride at a barn so he used to ride some as well. He has a great eye and I think the potential to be a good rider if he put his mind to it. It would be great to recruit a new boy to riding. And he wants to ride english!!!! He says that he's secure in his sexuality and also finds english more confortable especially when you want to jump. He is too funny.

Well that's about it. Gonna make the best of the weekend. I have lost 15 lbs so far. I'm to the point that I am rarely hungry now. I'm only eating when my body needs it and nothing more. Lots of water and also sports drinks with electrolytes so I stay hydrated. So as I said before, I am done calling and texting Greg. This is his decision and I need to get out of the rut and get him out of my mind. Sure I'm hurt and I even ased him on the phone yesterday what happened with us because we seemed to be both into each other and he said thathe really didn't have an answer and would have to think about it. I'm thinking "bullshit" in my mind but I let it go at that. I'm trying to move forward and onward. As I told my counselor the other day I want this to be "The Summer of Molly". All about me and what I want to do and not wasting space in my mind thinking about stupid boys. On that note, I'm hittin the shower and going to the barn for the day. Enjoy!