Dare I say I'm happy right now??!!

Yes you heard it right. I am pretty happy with everything in my life right now. Sure there is always room for improvement and wiggle room, but things are pretty good. I rode Possum Wed night and did lots of flat and then trotted 2'6" fences working on my position and maintaining a solid leg connection. I was not happy with the results. I would either have grip in my calf and not thighs, or my back would round slightly. Then when it seemed I was getting it, Possum would land heavy and yank the reins to have me support him instead of sitting up himself. It was quite frustrating and I was a little angry with myself. My legs have always been my strong suit. Their usually rock solid and don't move over any size fence. Sure cantering is a lot easier than trotting bigger fences, but it should stay the same. So after that ride I went out last night and took the sturrups right off my saddle. It was do or die time. I did lots of sitting and posting trot until my legs burned so bad tears came to my eyes. I cantered some and then trotted fences. My upper thighs were on fire. It sucked, but I knew if it hurt it was working. I practiced cantering tight figure eights and then after about 30 minutes my body couldn't do it anymore. I literally slid to the ground and my legs groaned in protest. Possum just looked at me like "that's it for today, are you kidding me".

Suprisingly this morning I wasn't too stiff. I definately feel it and when I bring my legs together it's sore. I made a mental note to myself that I need to ride without stirrups atleast once a week until my legs get stronger. I'm also working on my automatic releases to strengthen my core so I don't depend on the crest release as much and am more free with my hands over the jump and quicker to gather him since he loves to get heavy and strong on the landings. Always a work in progress.

Been feeling stronger emotionally too lately. Starting to get over the hurt feelings that I have been feeling for Greg. I hear more and more things that he is doing with this girl, all things that we had done together and it's not as bad as it has been. My new friend Nick and I are having a great time hanging out and have been seeing each other almost every night this week. I think he's going to the barn tonight when he's done work to ride and hang for about an hr and then has things to do. That's OK, I'm kinda tired from all the late nights talking anyways. He makes me feel good and helps me get over the hurt from my past. He's just a really good friend right now and I feel like we can be completely honest with each other. No games and crap, just life and talking about it which he loves to do as much as I do.

Ao after work this afternoon gonna hang at the barn. Gonna try and ride Aragon first before Nick comes over. It's been rainy and cloudy for the past few days and today it's partly sunny to that helps to lift the spirits. Have a great day everyone and don't forget about Mothers Day on Sunday, I still need to get a card oops...