Sorry everyone for missing the post the past few days. I've been crazy busy with work and life in general. The weekend was not that great at all. I'll srare all of the gory details but the saga with "G" continued from a drunken phone call from him Sat night saying that he loves me and wantes to spend the rest of his life with me and then he went and spent Friday, Saturday, Sunday and Monday with the convenient store girl with the 3yo kid. However we did have a LOOOOOng talk last night. He said (again) that it is over with convenient store girl and he doesn't havew feelings for her like he does me. He said that he is genuinely confused with things going on in his life but knows that he really misses me and wants to try again and is afraid that things will end up back at the same place. That is one statement that I can relate to. The end of our relationship is someplace that I never want to go again. We both were miserable people and conbine the two and it was not good at all. He cried a lot on the phone last night. I told him that ofcourse I was skeptical cause he has said he was done with this girl before, but time will tell. We have agreed to not talk or see each other for a solid week so he can get his shit together and I can do mine. Neither one of us want to jump into anything, just see what happens, and in a week who knows things may change for him. We also talked exclusively about his alcohol use and abuse and how that can make his emotions go crazy. It felt like it was a productive converasation and we both felt better about talking the truth and the bottom line.
Now to move onto more exciting things. WE GOT THE APARTMENT!!!! We will be officially moving in this weekend. My friend is picking up the keys today and starting to move her stuff in. I am so excited to have my own space now. I have ordered the bedroom set, my parents are helpiong me out some and I have to come up with the rest of the money for it. I have never had my own bed or set and it's going to be something to last me a very long time. I also won't be driving as much and will have cell phone reception all the time now, as opposed to my parents house.
Also Sunday we have our summer barn party. There is going to be cook out, drinks, lots of people, games on horseback and a bonfire after dark with some adult beverages to be had. I am hoping to take a vacation day on Monday so I can sleep in and then finish moving my stuff into the new apartment, I need to ask soon!
Went on a little trail ride with Possum last nigth after work. We went through the woods and then met up with a dirt road. As soon as I turned him he wants to take off so I let him. He galloped so fast that it took my breath away. I was laughing so hard that I thought at one time I might come off. He was just eating up the ground and pouring on the speed. We also jumped a gate that was across a trail a few times which is about 3ft. We got perfect striding each time, yippee. The we went through a huge field and just galloped through the tall grass. It felt good to ride my horse again. We know each other so well. I never have to second guess with him and am always relaxed. He never heisitate when I ask him to do something and we're just like one being when we're riding together, it's a freeing feeling. I took him back to the barn, gave him a good rub down and let him loose to eat grass until another big thunderstorm came through.
I left the barn and went home to pick up the dogs and went to my parents little camp on the lake to sit on the dock and relax. That was where I talked to "G" on the phone. It was peaceful lsitening to the loons and frogs. No one was on the lake and it was just framed with green colored mountains. I have many good memories of that lake as a kid. Canoeing, swimming, having diving shows with my cousins. If I listen hard enough I can hear our screams and laughter still resonate around the lake. I think it was a good place for me to talk to "G". Came home late and went to bed even later. I'm dragging ass today and have almost a 12 hr work day. I'm looking forward to the weekend although it is still going to be stressful with the move but it's good stress. Have a great day everyone.
Oh and on a side note. I did go to the show Sunday and had a bout of heat stroke, I'm fine now but it wasn't a good day for me. I'm just glad that last weekend is over.
The pic above is not me but it might as well be. I had a rocking horse at around this age almost the same one and would watch The Man From Snowy River and during the race scene just gallop that little plastic horse on springs. I had a need for speed even as a little kid. I thought this pic was fitting.